I weighed in this morning at 295.8lbs, meaning I've lost roughly three pounds in two weeks. I know that losing 1.5lbs a week is a solid accomplishment for most dieters, but as has been said many times in this blog, I'm not most dieters. If I'm going to lose weight slowly, then I feel that I should be able to live a lot more normally.
Regardless, I simply cannot deny that my rigor has been lacking, both in what and how much I eat, as well as in exercise. I meet with the doctor at the end of September, and I want to have a few weeks of strict adherence to the diet to base my decisions on when we discuss leaving the diet. There is the possibility that I simply have a floor, and I can't get much below 300lbs on this diet. There is also the possibility that I'm eating more than I think, not working out nearly enough, and thus seeing my weight loss slow.
I've lost 130lbs, and while calorie needs don't scale on a linear fashion, I have far less caloric needs to maintain my weight than I did six months ago. Back in March I could have eaten 2000 calories a day for a month and probably lost 15lbs. Now, my needs are probably closer to 2500-3000 calories and even eating all meat, it's easier to reach that level than you think.
Perhaps the most troubling thing for me is that I'm stress eating. I cooked three pork chops yesterday for brunch, and ate two of them. After class I cooked two more, and them both. Four pork chops weigh in between 24 and 32oz. Add in a jerky stick at school and I was roughly double my calories for the day. It's still under 2000 calories, but at this point nearly any diet I'm on should be under that. The problem isn't so much eating so much meat, it's why I ate so much: I'm stressed about being unemployed, and feeling pretty bad about it, and eating makes me feel better.
It's worrying because it shows that the diet hasn't really helped address the underlying problems I have with food, it simply ignored them. Which is fine, I'd rather lose weight right now than work out why I compulsively eat, but I'm going to have to deal with it at some point. I'm going to try to be more aware, and do all the standard cliches they recommend: replacing food with exercise, and thinking about eat bite, etc.
I hope to put up a few good weeks on the diet this month. If do it, and lose weight quickly again, than I'll know that I need to stay on. If I'm still stalled out, than I think it's time to make my peace with who I am. If I simply can't stay strictly on it... well, than I think I cycle off gracefully, take a break, and launch back into it after a few months.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
Day 185 - Six Months!
As of today, I've officially been on this diet for six months. Like all passages of time, the days are slow but the months are fast. All in all, it's been a very successful half year.
I started weighing 432lbs, with a 60" waist (if I was lucky), slightly high blood pressure, and virtually no cardiovascular fitness. Today I'm weighing right at 300lbs, with a 52" that can fit into 50's better than I used to fit into 60's, excellent health, and improved endurance and overall fitness. I lost 132lbs in 184 days, or just over 11oz a day.
I've struggled to exercise enough, and I've struggled recently to stay on track food wise, but I haven't left the diet completely. I've stayed on my supplements, and the worst side effect I've noticed is that my hair is thinning. Hardly a day passes that I don't miss eating and drinking normally, but I'm still very happy with "Cheats" that don't kick me out of ketosis.
Life is easier now that I'm thinner. I can sit in any waiting area, buckle up in any car, shop with far more options. I have shirts from wal mart and Jc Penny, and in the coming months I'll be buying pants at those stores as well. I'm currently on the smallest notch of a belt that I couldn't wear before the diet.
The diet has had it's downsides. I've lost my cavalier attitude towards my weight, and I now feel bad about my body in ways I certainly never really admitted before. I can't say I didn't feel them, I just repressed or ignored them. Now, I'm aware, but as I'm working on them, I don't find myself dwelling on them too much.
I've found the lack of drinking to be harder than I had anticipated. I wasn't a heavy drinker, but I enjoyed a night of hard drinking from time to time. I find that I miss that, and the feeling of two beers with a meal after a long day.
I miss the feeling of eating for comfort. I miss pizza and burgers and Chinese food and tacos.
I'm afraid that I'll have virtually all of my old food issues when I leave the diet. I wonder what's wrong with me that I feel the need to eat like I do, even when I'm not hungry. I'm very aware now of when I'm hungry and when I'm not, and I still want to eat. There are times when I'm scared to leave the diet, because I think I'll simply put it all back on.
There are also times when I don't care if I put it all back on, I just want to eat like a human being.
All in all, the diet is a love hate thing. I hate the restrictions and the rules, but I love the results and the simplicity. The hardest thing for me to really face right now is the knowledge that this is simply the first short segment of a long, long process.
I started weighing 432lbs, with a 60" waist (if I was lucky), slightly high blood pressure, and virtually no cardiovascular fitness. Today I'm weighing right at 300lbs, with a 52" that can fit into 50's better than I used to fit into 60's, excellent health, and improved endurance and overall fitness. I lost 132lbs in 184 days, or just over 11oz a day.
I've struggled to exercise enough, and I've struggled recently to stay on track food wise, but I haven't left the diet completely. I've stayed on my supplements, and the worst side effect I've noticed is that my hair is thinning. Hardly a day passes that I don't miss eating and drinking normally, but I'm still very happy with "Cheats" that don't kick me out of ketosis.
Life is easier now that I'm thinner. I can sit in any waiting area, buckle up in any car, shop with far more options. I have shirts from wal mart and Jc Penny, and in the coming months I'll be buying pants at those stores as well. I'm currently on the smallest notch of a belt that I couldn't wear before the diet.
The diet has had it's downsides. I've lost my cavalier attitude towards my weight, and I now feel bad about my body in ways I certainly never really admitted before. I can't say I didn't feel them, I just repressed or ignored them. Now, I'm aware, but as I'm working on them, I don't find myself dwelling on them too much.
I've found the lack of drinking to be harder than I had anticipated. I wasn't a heavy drinker, but I enjoyed a night of hard drinking from time to time. I find that I miss that, and the feeling of two beers with a meal after a long day.
I miss the feeling of eating for comfort. I miss pizza and burgers and Chinese food and tacos.
I'm afraid that I'll have virtually all of my old food issues when I leave the diet. I wonder what's wrong with me that I feel the need to eat like I do, even when I'm not hungry. I'm very aware now of when I'm hungry and when I'm not, and I still want to eat. There are times when I'm scared to leave the diet, because I think I'll simply put it all back on.
There are also times when I don't care if I put it all back on, I just want to eat like a human being.
All in all, the diet is a love hate thing. I hate the restrictions and the rules, but I love the results and the simplicity. The hardest thing for me to really face right now is the knowledge that this is simply the first short segment of a long, long process.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Day 184 - Back on Track
Even if the scale doesn't show it yet, I'm back on track. Two solid days of adherence to the diet, at least with regards to what I'm eating. I'm still a 3-5oz over each day, but that's not a huge deal. I'm just glad that I never had the really bad hunger pangs like I did after binging on jerky.
With it being summer, there's simply no really great way to get weight daily. I drink so much liquid just to keep cool, and I'm in and out of A/C environment where I do and don't sweat, that I know I'm retaining crazy water. I've literally woken up and been 4 or 5 pounds lighter than I was the previous day, after holding steady for a week. Given that problems I had as recently as four days ago, I'm not fixated on the scale right now. I will be in a few days, when the weather breaks and the last of the almonds are completely flushed from my system.
I'm planning on doing a six month retrospective tomorrow, as I started this diet on March 3rd. I was surprised that it's well past a half year by days, and then I remembered that while I've dieted through two of the 30 day months, the other half of the year has February. So I'm a few days over the technical line, I'm more interested in what month I'm in. I'm taking the GMAT tomorrow, so this retrospective will probably be written and even posted tonight.
With it being summer, there's simply no really great way to get weight daily. I drink so much liquid just to keep cool, and I'm in and out of A/C environment where I do and don't sweat, that I know I'm retaining crazy water. I've literally woken up and been 4 or 5 pounds lighter than I was the previous day, after holding steady for a week. Given that problems I had as recently as four days ago, I'm not fixated on the scale right now. I will be in a few days, when the weather breaks and the last of the almonds are completely flushed from my system.
I'm planning on doing a six month retrospective tomorrow, as I started this diet on March 3rd. I was surprised that it's well past a half year by days, and then I remembered that while I've dieted through two of the 30 day months, the other half of the year has February. So I'm a few days over the technical line, I'm more interested in what month I'm in. I'm taking the GMAT tomorrow, so this retrospective will probably be written and even posted tonight.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Day 181 - Mistakes were made
So, it's time for the first serious setback I've experienced. True, I basically left ketosis after the half bag of jerky, and discovering that buffalo wings were low carb led to me only losing 15lbs in July, but I'm genuinely upset with myself after this last week, all thanks to delicious almonds.
yes, almonds are low carb, high in fiber, and are a delicious snack. They're also basically all fat, and when you eat two cans of them a day, that's 2000 calories of just almonds. In case anybody is curious, I have not lost any weight in a week.
My zest for low carb, but extremely caloric foods is becoming a problem. I'm almost never on target with my actual consumption, and I've probably had some sort of improper food 90% of the last 60 days.
I'm mad for two reasons: the first is that I'm not losing weight nearly as fast, and the second is that I'm still depriving myself of a huge number of things. I'm sacrificing too much to tread water or lose a pound a week.
yes, almonds are low carb, high in fiber, and are a delicious snack. They're also basically all fat, and when you eat two cans of them a day, that's 2000 calories of just almonds. In case anybody is curious, I have not lost any weight in a week.
My zest for low carb, but extremely caloric foods is becoming a problem. I'm almost never on target with my actual consumption, and I've probably had some sort of improper food 90% of the last 60 days.
I'm mad for two reasons: the first is that I'm not losing weight nearly as fast, and the second is that I'm still depriving myself of a huge number of things. I'm sacrificing too much to tread water or lose a pound a week.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Day 175 - A 299lb weakling
For the second morning in a row, I got a result south of 300lbs when I weighed myself, meaning I've achieved one of my bigger weight based goals. It feels really good, and even if some of the weight loss is due to post humidity/heat wave water loss, its still lost weight. I'm also seeing that I'll have a very good August: I've already lost 15lbs with a week left to go. After losing 15 in July, I was hoping that I could get the 20lbs a month back on track, and it looks like I might be able to get close to that.
There are times when I realize that I'm celebrating being at a weight that most people would be horrified to find themselves at, but there's no value in thinking like that. That I was once 432lbs is a fact, it's done, and I need to celebrate the progress I've made, and not rue how far I have left to go.
I'd commented in an earlier post about how weight loss might be a categorical imperative in the US, with most people either attempting it or thinking about it. Talking to people, I find them genuinely impressed when I tell them what I've lost. While waiting for my wings at the Linden Tavern (my treat for cracking 300), I stopped into the men's clothier next door. The salesman was in his 50's and wasn't wild about helping me at first, but I told him that I'd lost 130lbs and was still losing, he warmed right up. I'm still a ways out from their biggest stuff, but he figured at most another twenty, thirty pounds. After realizing he wasn't going to sell me anything, we still chatted a while about weight loss and diet.
I'm not prone to false (or really any) modesty, yet I still feel odd in taking credit for this weight loss. The program fits me like a glove, I've had ample financial and emotional support from my family, I had tons of time this year to cook properly and not be tempted at work, and I knew that by losing weight I could count on a steady stream of money from back home. I approached it like a job, knowing that if I didn't do it, I'd be broke soon. I'm plenty happy to reap the accolades, I guess, but I still wish more people understood that I'm not some master of human willpower or something. Mostly, I'm a guy that's scared of surgery and/or moving into my parent's basement.
Now that the 300lb barrier has been shattered, Chuck Yeager style, it is time to ponder the next handful of milestones. Next up is 287lbs, at which I will no longer be "morbidly" obese, instead I'll merely be "severely" obese. By a twist of fate, that is also the point at which I'll have lost fully one third of my start weight. Looking ahead further than that is 260lbs, which is a highly personal goal in that it's 100lbs above my "ideal" weight for my height (5'11"), thus totally eliminating me as a candidate for weight loss surgery. Beyond that, 250lbs is of course my goal weight for all of this, and at some point in there I should be able to start fitting into the biggest clothes offered at mainstream stores. I'm broke so I can't buy any, but at least I'll have the option!
All in all, I'm once again happy with the diet. July was rough, for a variety of reasons, and while I kept the faith it's rewarding to see results.
There are times when I realize that I'm celebrating being at a weight that most people would be horrified to find themselves at, but there's no value in thinking like that. That I was once 432lbs is a fact, it's done, and I need to celebrate the progress I've made, and not rue how far I have left to go.
I'd commented in an earlier post about how weight loss might be a categorical imperative in the US, with most people either attempting it or thinking about it. Talking to people, I find them genuinely impressed when I tell them what I've lost. While waiting for my wings at the Linden Tavern (my treat for cracking 300), I stopped into the men's clothier next door. The salesman was in his 50's and wasn't wild about helping me at first, but I told him that I'd lost 130lbs and was still losing, he warmed right up. I'm still a ways out from their biggest stuff, but he figured at most another twenty, thirty pounds. After realizing he wasn't going to sell me anything, we still chatted a while about weight loss and diet.
I'm not prone to false (or really any) modesty, yet I still feel odd in taking credit for this weight loss. The program fits me like a glove, I've had ample financial and emotional support from my family, I had tons of time this year to cook properly and not be tempted at work, and I knew that by losing weight I could count on a steady stream of money from back home. I approached it like a job, knowing that if I didn't do it, I'd be broke soon. I'm plenty happy to reap the accolades, I guess, but I still wish more people understood that I'm not some master of human willpower or something. Mostly, I'm a guy that's scared of surgery and/or moving into my parent's basement.
Now that the 300lb barrier has been shattered, Chuck Yeager style, it is time to ponder the next handful of milestones. Next up is 287lbs, at which I will no longer be "morbidly" obese, instead I'll merely be "severely" obese. By a twist of fate, that is also the point at which I'll have lost fully one third of my start weight. Looking ahead further than that is 260lbs, which is a highly personal goal in that it's 100lbs above my "ideal" weight for my height (5'11"), thus totally eliminating me as a candidate for weight loss surgery. Beyond that, 250lbs is of course my goal weight for all of this, and at some point in there I should be able to start fitting into the biggest clothes offered at mainstream stores. I'm broke so I can't buy any, but at least I'll have the option!
All in all, I'm once again happy with the diet. July was rough, for a variety of reasons, and while I kept the faith it's rewarding to see results.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Day 173 - So close!
I haven't posted in a while, so this is going to be a bit of a re-cap of the last four weeks, plus this morning's news. At the end of July, I visited the doctor for a check up. He was pleasantly surprised by my progress, although still decided he should remind me that people who got surgery keep the weight off longer. I felt like telling him that while that may be true, I'll worry about that the next time I need to lose weight, because right now the diet seems to be working.
My weigh in July 30th was officially 319lbs, for 113lbs lost. Apparently I've been miscalculating how much weight I lost, as my initial weigh in at the bariatric center was 432, not 433lbs. However, my initial weigh in when I went to the doctor for the referral was actually 442lbs, so somehow I lost 10lbs between my first doctor's visit and starting the diet. I haven't been counting that, as 10lbs at 442 is just over 2%, and could be explained through water retention, etc. Still, it is an "official" weigh in, and when the diet is complete, I might count the total weight loss from there, rather than from the 432. In the meantime, all of my progress has been measured against one yardstick, and I don't think it'd be fair to suddenly add 10lbs to my tally.
In terms of progress, this morning's news is mildly frustrating but actually exciting. After a disappointing July (only losing 15lbs, ending right around 315 instead of 310 as planned) I've had an equally uneven august. Today, however, I weighed in at 300.4lbs. I could have take off my shirt or tried some other way to squeak out a half pound, but I think I might just enjoy the feeling of being close to a big goal, and try to stay on course to blow past 300lbs by tomorrow.
I did speak with the doctor about how long I'm to stay on the diet, and he gave what I considered the worst possible answer: "Until you stop losing weight." I've gotten used to the diet, to be sure, but I was very much hoping to have an end date to look forward to. I'm in some sort of Gitmo style diet: I have no clue when I get to leave. Of course, given the increasingly sinister sounding "phase two" the doctor talks about, I'll probably never fully leave some sort of dietary control. I guess I'm to stay on the PSMF until my weight loss completely stops, and then I refeed. This worries me for another reason: I now can just sabotage the diet to leave it. Before, when it was based on time or amount of weight lost, I could focus on a goal. I'm a task oriented person, so that's fine. Now, it's about the process: stay on the diet until it stops working. Since I can make the diet stop working, I now can leave the diet whenever I want: just eat poorly.
I'm not going to do that yet. I'm still working on a few of my big goals. I'm almost under 300lbs, and I'm only about 15lbs from no longer being morbidly obese. I'm fitting easily into size 52 pants, meaning I'm not far from the upper ends of mainstream stores that stock 48s. For a variety of reasons, I think 250lbs is still a very good goal, and is the first point I'd feel comfortable really considering cycling off the diet. There is a part of me that's curious to see where I can end up if I just stay on it till the end.
My weigh in July 30th was officially 319lbs, for 113lbs lost. Apparently I've been miscalculating how much weight I lost, as my initial weigh in at the bariatric center was 432, not 433lbs. However, my initial weigh in when I went to the doctor for the referral was actually 442lbs, so somehow I lost 10lbs between my first doctor's visit and starting the diet. I haven't been counting that, as 10lbs at 442 is just over 2%, and could be explained through water retention, etc. Still, it is an "official" weigh in, and when the diet is complete, I might count the total weight loss from there, rather than from the 432. In the meantime, all of my progress has been measured against one yardstick, and I don't think it'd be fair to suddenly add 10lbs to my tally.
In terms of progress, this morning's news is mildly frustrating but actually exciting. After a disappointing July (only losing 15lbs, ending right around 315 instead of 310 as planned) I've had an equally uneven august. Today, however, I weighed in at 300.4lbs. I could have take off my shirt or tried some other way to squeak out a half pound, but I think I might just enjoy the feeling of being close to a big goal, and try to stay on course to blow past 300lbs by tomorrow.
I did speak with the doctor about how long I'm to stay on the diet, and he gave what I considered the worst possible answer: "Until you stop losing weight." I've gotten used to the diet, to be sure, but I was very much hoping to have an end date to look forward to. I'm in some sort of Gitmo style diet: I have no clue when I get to leave. Of course, given the increasingly sinister sounding "phase two" the doctor talks about, I'll probably never fully leave some sort of dietary control. I guess I'm to stay on the PSMF until my weight loss completely stops, and then I refeed. This worries me for another reason: I now can just sabotage the diet to leave it. Before, when it was based on time or amount of weight lost, I could focus on a goal. I'm a task oriented person, so that's fine. Now, it's about the process: stay on the diet until it stops working. Since I can make the diet stop working, I now can leave the diet whenever I want: just eat poorly.
I'm not going to do that yet. I'm still working on a few of my big goals. I'm almost under 300lbs, and I'm only about 15lbs from no longer being morbidly obese. I'm fitting easily into size 52 pants, meaning I'm not far from the upper ends of mainstream stores that stock 48s. For a variety of reasons, I think 250lbs is still a very good goal, and is the first point I'd feel comfortable really considering cycling off the diet. There is a part of me that's curious to see where I can end up if I just stay on it till the end.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Day 145 - This is why you don't freak out
I had a stretch of something like five or six days when my weight didn't change. When you lose five pounds a week, going five days without loss is noteworthy, but I kept trying to remind myself that there are a lot of reasons for even weekly variation.
In the last three days, I've lost six pounds. Now, I clearly haven't lost six pounds of fat in three days, even on my diet. What I have been doing is drinking in excess of a gallon of fluids a day, which leads to over eight pounds of mass flowing through me daily. Yesterday alone, I drank three two liters of diet Coke while playing Warhammer in a store without air conditioning. I'm still not sure how exactly I came out of that two pounds lighter this morning than I was before the tournament.
In terms of awareness, I'm in a sweet spot for people noticing my weight loss. Acquaintances I haven't seen for a month now notice that I'm losing weight, as 20lbs is pretty dramatic on a person my size. When I was losing weight faster, it was less noticeable, but in the future, I'll be losing weight more slowly, so it will take longer to be visible. Although I suppose on most people even 10lbs shows up pretty well.
With the last few days, I'm back on track to hit 310 by the end of the month. I have an official weigh-in at my doctors appointment wednesday, so I'll be able to calibrate back to what I weigh on my own scale. This is my first check up medically since mid may, and the first visit with the doctor since April. I've obviously made a lot of progress since then, and I'm curious as to his reaction. I also need to ask what the lower weight limit for my diet is. I'm sure I'm nowhere near it, but I currently plan on staying on the diet until the end of the year, cycling off in January and February, and thus starting my "phase two" Mediterranean diet roughly in March. According to one calculation, at my current pace I'll be down to roughly 250lbs by the beginning of November. Assuming my pace slows to 3lbs a week at that point, I'll by 226lbs by the end of the year, and so nearly 200lbs by next march, which will be a year. I don't know how long they'll keep my on the PSMF diet though, which is why I need to talk with the doctor.
In many ways, I'm less certain about my "goal" weight than I was when I started. I never really had one, I just wanted to lose weight. In many ways, I've surpassed my expectations. I had never really had luck with weight loss, and honestly I figured I'd be lucky to lose 40lbs, and get stuck. I had put 250lbs as a goal that would be very tough to reach, and 200lbs was a dream target. As of today, while I'm still 60lbs away from 250, I'm essentially 2/3 of the way there. I'm in the home stretch. I should be under 300lbs for the first time in roughly 7 years by mid august, and 250 by Halloween. I'm wondering if I'm doing the right thing by just focusing on staying on the diet, and not worrying about my "goal," or if having a hard target would motivate me more.
I think the reason I'm less worried about a specific weight is that all of my goals, while still tangible, aren't directly linked to a specific weight number. The biggest mass based goal I have right now is to get under 287lbs, which is the upper limit for morbid obesity for my height. It's an arbitrary line in the sand, but it's a reasonable measure. In more of a "reach" goal, getting under 215lbs makes me no longer clinically obese at all. For everything else, my goals are more volume based: buying clothes normally, fitting into roller coasters, etc. I'm now adding more fitness based goals, which I think is helping. Weight is just a number, an important number, but while I fixate on it for evidence of progress in how much weight I've lost, I'm not too concerned about where I end up, as long as I'm healthy and happy.
In the last three days, I've lost six pounds. Now, I clearly haven't lost six pounds of fat in three days, even on my diet. What I have been doing is drinking in excess of a gallon of fluids a day, which leads to over eight pounds of mass flowing through me daily. Yesterday alone, I drank three two liters of diet Coke while playing Warhammer in a store without air conditioning. I'm still not sure how exactly I came out of that two pounds lighter this morning than I was before the tournament.
In terms of awareness, I'm in a sweet spot for people noticing my weight loss. Acquaintances I haven't seen for a month now notice that I'm losing weight, as 20lbs is pretty dramatic on a person my size. When I was losing weight faster, it was less noticeable, but in the future, I'll be losing weight more slowly, so it will take longer to be visible. Although I suppose on most people even 10lbs shows up pretty well.
With the last few days, I'm back on track to hit 310 by the end of the month. I have an official weigh-in at my doctors appointment wednesday, so I'll be able to calibrate back to what I weigh on my own scale. This is my first check up medically since mid may, and the first visit with the doctor since April. I've obviously made a lot of progress since then, and I'm curious as to his reaction. I also need to ask what the lower weight limit for my diet is. I'm sure I'm nowhere near it, but I currently plan on staying on the diet until the end of the year, cycling off in January and February, and thus starting my "phase two" Mediterranean diet roughly in March. According to one calculation, at my current pace I'll be down to roughly 250lbs by the beginning of November. Assuming my pace slows to 3lbs a week at that point, I'll by 226lbs by the end of the year, and so nearly 200lbs by next march, which will be a year. I don't know how long they'll keep my on the PSMF diet though, which is why I need to talk with the doctor.
In many ways, I'm less certain about my "goal" weight than I was when I started. I never really had one, I just wanted to lose weight. In many ways, I've surpassed my expectations. I had never really had luck with weight loss, and honestly I figured I'd be lucky to lose 40lbs, and get stuck. I had put 250lbs as a goal that would be very tough to reach, and 200lbs was a dream target. As of today, while I'm still 60lbs away from 250, I'm essentially 2/3 of the way there. I'm in the home stretch. I should be under 300lbs for the first time in roughly 7 years by mid august, and 250 by Halloween. I'm wondering if I'm doing the right thing by just focusing on staying on the diet, and not worrying about my "goal," or if having a hard target would motivate me more.
I think the reason I'm less worried about a specific weight is that all of my goals, while still tangible, aren't directly linked to a specific weight number. The biggest mass based goal I have right now is to get under 287lbs, which is the upper limit for morbid obesity for my height. It's an arbitrary line in the sand, but it's a reasonable measure. In more of a "reach" goal, getting under 215lbs makes me no longer clinically obese at all. For everything else, my goals are more volume based: buying clothes normally, fitting into roller coasters, etc. I'm now adding more fitness based goals, which I think is helping. Weight is just a number, an important number, but while I fixate on it for evidence of progress in how much weight I've lost, I'm not too concerned about where I end up, as long as I'm healthy and happy.
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